Just a worthless life
Chapter 39:Just a worthless life
Memories are distant and vague, but at a certain moment it is so clear.He closed his eyes and let the cold wind outside his window hit him in his face.
She began to lose sleep, lay in bed for a long time can not sleep, at night to go downstairs to see Aunt Qi several times to relax.
Maybe I didn’t sleep well, maybe I thought too much.In the morning, her head began to grow in pain again.She did not dare to let Aunt Qi find, found a painkiller to eat, and tightened the hot towel over and over again.When the pain eased, she gently sighed and began to prepare breakfast.
Before the operation, it is more to eat something nutritious to make up for the body, and the breakfast is very abundant.Zhou porridge, steamed a small sandbag and dumplings, made his own improved pancake fruit and egg roll, and warmed the milk.
Qi Yun knew that Zhou He was nervous, although she was independent and strong and had an opinion, but she was extremely insecure.In the years since she arrived here, she has often woken up from nightmares.
Although the two could not eat so much waste, she also ate better than usual, but she also ate better than usual.
He was very happy, packed the dishes and took the basket to go out to buy food.Say to buy some fresh vegetables, by the way, to see if there are any old hens to sell, by the way, buy a comeback soup.
She slid coldly and made her be careful on the road.
Zhou responded well, put on a thick cotton suit, covered half of the face with a scarf, and then went out of the door.
She did not go to the big food market, but went to the small food market that was a little far away.They live on this side of the city, the small vegetable market on the other side of the market, the flow of people is not large, there are not many kinds of vegetables.But everything is grown by the villagers in the vicinity, and it is cheap and fresh.
It is a chicken that can only be bought here to buy domestic chicken.I also want to buy some eggs and go back to replenish my aunt's body.
Although the weather is cold, because it is about to close the year, there are many villagers who come to sell things.Zhou He's luck is still good, and when he arrives, he sees some villagers squatting on the side of the road to sell chickens and eggs.
Chickens are not old chickens, but they are also home-grown.She even bought the eggs.Today is the market, selling a variety of things.She chose to buy a lot of things and then she went back.
When you come by bus, you have to go back for a long time to have a car.She bought too much and hit a black tricycle.The road in the alley was not wide, the driver did not want to go to the alley, Zhou paid the car money to get out of the car, carrying things slowly back.
There was still so far from the door of the courtyard that I looked up and saw Xu Yuanning standing at the door.He was wearing a black coat with a plaid scarf around his neck.It looks like it should have been standing for a while.
He didn’t know how he came back, froze a little, and then stepped forward.
Xu Yuanning did not know what he was thinking, and she did not even find out when she was close.He only spoke up and said, “Brother.”She put what she was holding on to the ground.
Xu Yuanning turned around, looked at a large number of things on the ground, and a smile appeared on his face, saying, “Go out and buy food?”
He nodded, uh, and asked, “It’s still early, how did you get here?”
She got up early in the morning, and it was only ten o'clock.
"I just came here too."Xu Yuanning said vaguely, then looked in the yard and said, “Can you find a place to sit?”
He remembered that he had not invited him into the house, so he quickly said, "I will open the door immediately."
She said she was holding the key from her pocket.
Xu Yuanning did not go in, said: "I will not go in, you first carry things back, I am waiting for you outside ... a little thing to say to you."
Zhou He's movements paused for a moment, but said nothing, and went to the yard with something.Auntie in the room was dozing, and she took the thing lightly to the kitchen, and took the blanket to cover her, so she gently closed the door and went out.
Xu Yuanning was still standing in the same place, Zhou closed out, looked at the other end of the alley, and said, "There is a cafe over there."
She said, taking the road ahead.
The cafe is not far away and has been rebuilt from the old house.A terrace was vacated at the door, and many flowers and plants were placed, because the owner took care of it, and even in winter it was lively.
The flow of people here is not large, and the store is open in the depths of the alley, and there are almost no people.The boss is a young woman, seeing people are not in a hurry, still slowly pouring flowers, this is only to come forward, casually asked: "Drink something?"
“A glass of lemonade.”Zhou answered a sentence, looked at Xu Yuanning, and asked, “What is the brother drinking?”
“A glass of Blue Mountain, thank you.”Xu Yuanning answered.
The boss soon left, and there were only two people left in the small cafe, Zhou He and Xu Yuanning.The rain outside fell from under the roof, and it was very silent.
Xu Yuanning never spoke, Zhou He looked at the time and asked, "Brother, what do you say?"
She was worried about her aunt and wanted to go back quickly.
Xu Yuanning seemed to be thinking of the appropriate wording, looked up at Zhou He, and said in a low voice after a while: "Ahu, aunt's surgery is temporarily not moving, I have already contacted the doctor."
His tone was serious, and it didn’t seem like a joke at all.
He immediately thought of Dr. Jia and asked, “Is there a problem with the doctor?”
Xu Yuan Ning shook his head and said, “No.”
Zhou Hetong's nerves were slightly loosened, and the doubts in his heart were heavier, and I did not know why Xu Yuanning suddenly ran to let him not have surgery for the time being.
She looked at him.
The boss brought the coffee up, Xu Yuanning took a sip of coffee, and then asked, “Do you know who Mr. Cheng is?”
I staggered this way, so look at Xu Yuanning.
Xu Yuanning's appearance was complex, and he whispered: "His identity is not as simple as a foreign trade businessman."He paused slightly, and then said, "I have looked for him, but I only know that he has returned from abroad, and the rest will not be found."
He said stop here.Zhou's face was calm, and he took a small sip of lemonade and said, "I don't know what my brother wants to say."
She was so calm that Xu Yuanning was unexpected, he slackened a little, and then said: "His background is blank, it should be deliberately erased."This is enough to show that he is not as simple as the surface.Ai, I know that my proposal is a bit abrupt.But please believe me, aunt's surgery is not done for a while, I have let people contact the doctor again..."
Before he finished speaking, her face was light and alienated, and she smiled low, and looked directly at Xu Yuanning and said, "I understand the meaning of brother, he may have an impure motive."She paused slightly, her lips aroused some sarcasm, and then said, “Where is that brother?”My brother and I are just alumni.My brother helped me so selflessly, wouldn’t it just be pure compassion?There are more poor people in the world than we are, and my brother may not be able to sympathize with him."
Her tone was indifferent, with more alienation.
Xu Yuanning unknowingly checked Cheng Yi's bottom sky, and even Dr. Jia had already checked.Of course, she was not spared either.
That feeling is not good.She didn’t turn her face away, it was already polite.But I also did not plan to stay, took out the money to press the bottom of the cup, said: "Thank you brother care, I, but it's a bad life, no brother to worry about it."It was very cold in the morning, and my brother walked slowly, and I won't send it."
She said, standing up and leaving.
Just opened the chair, Xu Yuanning looked up at her and said, “Ahu, don’t you remember the hustle and bustle?”
The action of Zhou He stopped you, and the whole person suddenly froze in place.After a while, I looked back at Xu Yuanning.
Xu Yuanning's look was complicated, with some faint sadness, and then said, "I used to live next door."
Before Zhou He rarely thought about it, the dusty memories were suddenly pulled into front of him, even with a lot of emotions.
She quickly pressed down these emotions, looked at Xu Yuanning, and calmly asked, "So it was not an accident to go to the restaurant that day, right?"
She was referring to the day when Xu Yuanning went to say hello to the deceased.He sat back in the chair.
Xu Yuanning did not deny it, nodded his head and said, “Yes.”I didn't know until that day... I didn't know it was you."
When he was a child, he was extremely quiet and rarely played with the children around him.Most of the time, the old grandmother accompanied him to paint or read books in the yard.The only meeting between them is to say hello every day when they go to school or go home from school.
He noticed that she had been there for a long time, and he thought that she was the little girl in the beginning.He also observed behind his back for a long time, and he was even more suspicious when she learned that she was living with her adoptive mother.But there was no chance of getting close to her until that time to take her to the hospital.
For a long time, she was silent, yes, she was indeed a little out of control that day.She bowed her head, the corners of her mouth aroused some ridicule, in fact, even if she stood in front of them, they would not necessarily recognize her.She shouldn’t have left that day.But time cannot be turned back.
She looked up slowly, looked at Xu Yuanning, and said, "Brother, if you were still a friend of mine, we haven't seen it today, and you've never seen it before."
She knew that Xu Yuanning had not told anyone, and if she had told it, out of face, no one would have come.
Xu Yuanning did not speak for a moment, and after a while he said, “It is useless.”Uncle Li... it was your little uncle who was looking for you too.He should be there soon."So many years, someone suddenly looking for her is very strange, Xu Yuanning also explained: "Your grandmother has been suffering from Alzheimer's disease for many years, I heard that this half a year has been talking about to see you."Your little uncle was sent to the United States after you left, and began to look for you when you returned home earlier this year.”
After so many years, some people even remembered her, and all kinds of tastes in Zhou He's heart were mixed.After a moment’s silence, he asked, “Is your grandmother’s body okay?”
She was finally willing to mention the past, Xu Yuanning quickly nodded, said: "except can not remember things are very good."
Zhou He did not speak again, stood up in silence for a moment, and said, "Brother, I'll go back first."She said just outside.
Xu Yuanning still wanted to say something, but in the end he did not open his mouth.Watching the thin figure disappear into the rain-soaked alley.
He went home, did not enter the yard immediately, and stood outside for a while before entering.There was a faint voice in the house, and she entered the house and found that the aunt of the next house had come.Auntie, she came over to ask her to teach her to knit a sweater.
Zhou He entered the house and greeted him politely, the smile on her face was reluctant, afraid that she would see what she would see, and said that she would go out and buy something.
Auntie was good, and told her to be careful on the road.
Zhou Helian even left the house without changing his shoes, and just closed the door and heard the aunt of the neighbor sigh, saying, "This child has been heavy in his mind since childhood, you two have been dependent on each other for so many years, you must not say more discouraged, if you really have something to do with her?"
My aunt smiled at me.The two did not continue on this topic, and discussed the stitches.
He stood there for a moment and slowly left the yard.
It was raining in the sky, saying that she was going out to buy things, but in fact she had no place to go.She walked along the alley blankly, and did not look at the bus station outside, and when she saw the car parked, she sat up.
It was as if my mind had been stuffed with many things at once, and many dusty memories appeared from time to time.She held her hand tightly over her head.
Perhaps it had been too long to remember, and her whole being in a trance, until she returned to God, only to find out that she had arrived outside Cheng Yi's apartment.
She was frozen cold, and stood for a moment at the door, where she took out the spare key and opened it.
Cheng Yi was at home, wearing a pair of black-rimmed glasses with a book in his hand, and was coming out of the study.Seeing that the coat hair was wet, his eyebrows wrinkled slightly and said, “So how did it come to be cold?”
Zhou He came over completely unconsciously, and when he heard Cheng Yu ask, he bowed his head and said, "Come and clean."
You can’t say you have nowhere else to go.
Cheng Yi took a dry towel and threw it at her to let her wipe the water from her hair, and frowned and said, "It's too cold to come back."
I didn’t go to see him, he said a low voice.
Cheng Yi only realized that she was wrong, did not speak again, and took a cup of hot water and handed it to her.He said, “I haven’t been here these past few days, I don’t have to clean it.Take a break and wait for the body to warm up.”
He also did not stay in the living room, leaving the space for Zhou He, and took the book back to the study.
The living room was quiet, Zhou He did not drink the hot water, holding the cup so stunned to sit.The frozen body gradually warmed up in the heat, and she returned to God and drank the water in one mouth.
Cheng Yi did not know whether she had been paying attention to her or what, and saw her come back to God and come out of the study, lighted a cigarette, and asked, "What's the matter?"
He shook his head and said, “No.”
He didn’t talk anymore.After a minute or two, Zhou He suddenly asked lowly, “Can you give me a cigarette?”
Cheng Yi picked up his eyebrows and smoked a cigarette, then asked, “Will you smoke?”
He didn’t say anything, just took his cigarette.I took the fire myself and lit it.
Her movements were clumsy, and the smoke was lit before she snorted and coughed violently.Cheng Yi looked coldly, took the freshly lit smoke from her hand, choked it and threw it into the trash, spit out a cigarette, and said, "Don't smoke."
His voice was light.I said, taking another cigarette.
Zhou was choked with almost tears and coughed up, heard this body frozen, suddenly close to the sitting side of the Cheng Yi, before he reacted to kiss his lips.
There was still smoke in his mouth, and he was clumsy to bite.Cheng Yi did not expect that she would make such a move, and the cigarette in her hand almost burned her.He will be quenched in time, and his hand will be tucked away.Who knew that Zhou Jun seemed to expect, tugging tightly at his clothes.
She was so raw that she wouldn’t even stick out her tongue.I just know how to bite.Such a light bite is undoubtedly the most sensitive, Cheng Yi let her kiss without rules for a while, the big palm suddenly on the back of her head, passive for the initiative.
There is a lot more rhythm than the week.It wasn’t until he was out of breath that he let go of her.His lips had been red and swollen, his eyes were tightly closed, and he reached out and put his hand around his waist before he got up.
This is undoubtedly a silent invitation, Cheng Yi's eyes are slightly dark, and a low mute voice asks, "Do you know what you are doing?"
He didn’t speak, nor did he let go.Cheng Yi paused for a moment, reached out a little to take Zhou Hei’s hand away, and asked lightly, “What is the excitement?”
He is direct.
There was no sound, and he sat up straight.Cheng Yi glanced at her lightly and said, "I suggest you go out and run two laps to clear your mind."
He could not see that he was just a kint person.He said go to the bedroom.
The whole person was wooden, and after sitting for a while, he stood up and opened the door to go outside.It didn't go far downstairs, and Cheng Yi wore an outdoor sports outfit.He seemed to see that Zhou He was going to leave, reminding her, "The runway is on this side."
Zhou He's figure paused, Cheng Yi raised his wrist to look at the time, picked up his eyebrows, and said, "Let's start."Five laps, I'll count for you."
He was obviously not going to run, just to watch.
He stood up for a moment and really started running.
Running in the rain is very slippery, the shoes on her feet are not suitable, and it is extremely laborious to run.I don't know what kind of psychology, she did not stop, gritted her teeth and kept running.
These five laps of foot are six kilometers, and in the winter, the sweat of the week is running breathlessly, and the cold air breathes into the lungs for a burst of puncture.
Cheng Yu is naturally completely unable to feel her pain, quite professional for her time, and then criticize her speed and snails have a fight, you can compete to try who is fast and slow.
Zhou gritted his teeth and ran, until five laps arrived, and the whole body was generally exhausted to sit on the wet grass.Cheng Yi grabbed her with one hand, pushed her, and said, "Run a few steps and slowly stop."
He had to run half a circle again, and then he stopped.
The two people were still running in the rain, but Cheng Yi seemed to see all kinds of curious eyes cast by others, and Zhou slowly motioned her upstairs.
She sweated, and her clothes were wet and changed.
Cheng Yi, in addition to the hair wet a little bit and down is no different, into the elevator after pressing the floor to look at the week, slowly asked: "the brain is awake?"
Zhou He did not say anything, he naturally did not wait for her to answer, the elevator door opened and took the lead out of the elevator.
Probably also feel that Zhou He ran these laps is not easy, Cheng Yi did not let her cook, the two people ate dinner is frying steak, but also with Cheng Yi's collection of red wine.
Compared to slowly tasting the wine of the Cheng Yi, Zhou He is a complete cow drink.Drink one.Cheng Yi did not stop her, and the elegant slow-cut steak was cut.
He drank three cups in a row, and the redness of his face, which had been slightly pale, floated.She started cutting the steak.Her movements were also skillful and elegant, completely unlike the girls who grew up in the bottom of the market.
Cheng Yi, however, ate the next steak as he did not find it, and then swept to her and asked, “The sky has fallen?”
The movement of the choir was stopped, but there was still no sound.
She didn't mind if she didn't answer, and still ate elegant steak.
A meal is so quiet in the past, there is a light outside the window.Cheng Yu cleaned up his dishes, and then said to Zhou He, who was on the sofa: "Come on, I will send you back."
His eyes were a little confused, and he didn’t move, and he didn’t know if he was a little drunk.He sat so stunned with a pillow.
Cheng Yu’s eyebrows were picked, and she was not kind, and he took her out of the sofa.Her clothes were sweating and changing, and now she was wearing his clothes, wrapped like a big bear.But her weight is low and she does not bother to lift it.
When she reached the porch, Cheng Yi put her down and let her change her shoes.
Zhou He looked down at the ground, did not change his shoes, and suddenly reached out and hugged Cheng Yi's waist.Bury his face in his chest.
The faint smell of smoke on him was undoubtedly reassuring, but for a moment she came to look for his lips on tiptoe.Her lips also carried a slightly astringted red wine, Cheng Yi's body was tightly tightened, did not move, after a minute or two of reaching out to open the clumsy Zhou He, the voice asked lowly: "The brain is not awake?" 」
Zhou did not answer his words, but still reached out his hand to his waist to find his lips.
She was short, she was carrying her inconvenient, and this time she did not kiss his lips smoothly, and the soft lips were attached to his throat.
His body tightened, and suddenly he grabbed her and put her on the door.He raised her hand and put her lips down.
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