“Wonderful thoughts?”

I repeated these four words softly, and turned to look at him again, “Is that I’m going to kill myself?”

He was speechless to the calmer river, “Who made you kill yourself?”

With that, a pair of forces to come up with enough patience to face me, "let go, is suicide?" 」

I did not answer, but he put the fishing rod in his hand carefully and put it up next to him, "I ask you, after you understand the white fox's arrogance to put down?" 」

Nod your head, “Yes.”

He carried his hand, his eyes looked at me, bright but not sharp, like jade moist, "since understanding, why choose to commit suicide, want you to experience the last taste, although it is called the faint of all, but who let you die..."

Ask me annoy.

“I put it down, don’t I?”

He took a step closer to me and pointed to his head, "Since you think of the fundamentals of the phase and know the arrogance of the white fox, why take the most extreme step if you want to put it down?" 」

"You ask yourself, do you really feel that you are doing right, if you see the opposite, that is, you have been enlightened to get this sentence, you should understand that everything is not bothering, you have a high realm, then you can choose to go to a temple, beyond your white fox obsession, is not it?" 」

I have nothing to say.

Looking for a temple to go to the white fox?

You really stand to speak without pain, in that case if I find a temple directly beyond my own almost.

“I’m fine, don’t talk about me in my heart...”

I listened to his taunting tone and quivering, covering his own heart, “You can do that...”

He raised his hand, his eyes or looked directly at me, "Yes, you got the last taste, in an extreme way over the white fox, understand the faint of all the gloom, but this all-knowing is your fear or your innermost escape from the terrier?" 」

“I...”

His hand lifted to my chest, and suddenly he was a little aggressive, "Ask yourself, Xue Yu four, you, really... put it down."

I looked into his eyes, my mind was actually unusually awake, thinking, and seemed to be wide and endless, I thought of Lu Pei, thought of my uncle, thought of Xiao Liu and An-Nix-

His mouth opened, “Isn’t it, if it really puts it down, then the heart will not hurt?”

The high man raised his eyebrows slightly, "Of course, if you see through the nature of all things, you can become a fairy, and I can still help you here..."

“No.”

I shook my head, "I don't want to be immortal, I don't want to lie, maybe, I am some extreme when I don't appreciate the last taste, the thinking is also distorted, just like you said, I have the arrogance of the white fox, I want to put it down, I feel relaxed, but I face Lu Pei, my heart will hurt, I will not hesitate, but I dare not think deeply, because I have no idea, you are right, generally, is my escape, I want to escape, escape far away..."

I finally understood why I was still in pain in Lu Pei when I ended the stubbornness of the white fox!

Because I can't, really don't care!

It is very long, the heart is sour, but the eyes are dry, I face this high man, my brain is very clear, he will not appear here for no reason, perhaps, is to point me, or what is he who is unknown to me to give me what the subject.

If I say, I put it down completely, or that I really see everything, then maybe, is the standard answer.

Every trolding yin and yang, in the end, is mostly the pursuit of this.

But I want to tell the truth, this is also my original character, once the most hated is death, feel that it is the most useless, the most stumping practice, but forced to the desperate situation, I will actually compromise with myself, how extreme I am a person, I dare to kill myself.

I found that at this moment, I really saw a lot of things, since I was not afraid of death, why, dare not face my life.

“I’m sorry, maybe I was wrong...”

Looking at the high man, I slowly lowered my head, my eyes so dry, but I really wanted to cry, "This is my love robberies, people eat grain, we need to know, why, after I die, I will understand all the emotions, will see my own fault."

There was a slight drop of cool liquid on the tip of the nose, and it rained in the sky, falling in the river, the water was light, and the ripples were ripple-

He stood still, "If you give me a chance to come back, what will you do with your current heart that tastes the feelings of taste?" 」

“I will...”

I looked at the river in a daze, mouthing a smile gently raised my smile, "I will knock on my husband's door, tell him that no matter what happens, I am with him, life and death, I will not let him alone in the world, will not leave him in a black room, I will take his hand, give him all my encouragement, I want him to see my heart, love how beautiful, why hurt each other, obviously, I can..."

There is a lot of rain.

"Bam", he propped up an oil paper umbrella, I must say, his umbrella is suddenly appeared, this is it, I am so sad that he only supports himself?!

When he saw me a little stunned, he did not care, his chin pointed, "Do you have hate."

I sucked my nose, didn't cry, but I still wanted to suck my nose, and the rain went into my mouth, so salty.

“There is!”

I looked at him in the rain, "for me, or everyone, the most important thing is nothing but three things, family, love, pursuit, affection and love are let me enrich my own inner help and support me to achieve my dream, I hate the most is this God injustice!" 」These three are clearly snuggled feelings of each other, why did he force me to make a choice!”

The man nodded slightly, "So, do you regret it?"

I smiled, "This question you asked me, even if I die, I committed suicide in order to escape, but I still have no regrets, I Xue Baosi, all the way to get to the right path, even if I do the wrong thing, then the success is enough to offset, even if my body is full, I am still trying, if I do not die, I will continue!" 」

He smiled, "You mean, it's never a choice question for you, right?"

It's weird.

The rain poured on the face, but the hair and clothes were not wet.

I looked at the little water that was hit by the rain in the river, "This, you also asked, for me, of course not, but the high man, you say that you are not a god, but you seem to see through everything, then I can ask you a question?" 」

“All right.”

I raised my voice and looked at him with a smile, “Your mother and your wife have fallen into the river, who are you going to save?”

He suddenly couldn’t stop laughing, “Should I blame you for speaking badly?”

I am a little puzzled, rain, but at this time a little bit, "Why blame me, is my question you will not answer, this multiple choice question, many people do not understand, in my past, the logic is not at all, now, I just want to know your answer."

Don’t you want to overdo me?

At the very least, let me know something.

He cleared his throat and looked at the corner of the river and still smiled, "So, I will change the subject of your question a little, and turn it into four, a god, a monk, a priest, a mortal, if two people fall into the river in front of you at the same time, the gods pass by, guess who will save him?"

I smiled softly, "God can save both, he just wave his sleeves, the two can go ashore."

It's simple, isn't it?

He continued without expression, "The monk passed by."

I frowned slightly, “What kind of monk?”

"See all the monks, but these two people are the relatives of the monk, oh, the premise, this monk, can not swim very much, he went down, perhaps also a death."

His voice was gentle, but I was a little silent, half-sun, and said, "The monk will recite the scriptures on the shore, beyond his two most important people, because he has seen through everything, naturally, it has faded life and death, his mission is to cultivate more people, so he has to live to save more people from the sea of suffering, all beings are equal in his eyes."

Hearing my answer, he still did not respond, "The Taoist passed by, the Taoist situation is similar to the monk, he also saw everything, but he can not swim very much, but in the water, is the two most important two people, what should he do?" 」

“The Daoist...”

The Daoist's mission is to maintain the balance between the yin and the yang, he can not die, for more people, he knows his mission, so he will not save anyone, if these two people drown in front of him, then he will rise to the altar to help the soul of life, if the wrong soul evil, will be destroyed by him."

“All right.”

He nodded, "The last one is a man, he can't swim, you say what he's going to do."

“He...”

I think hard, but I can't get an answer, people who can't see everything are entangled, painful, and they are always asking themselves.

"Maybe he'll jump and die together."

I shook my head, "No, even if he does not die, he will live in pain and self-blame for life, even if he does not die."

"So there's only one who's suffering here."

He turned to me, "and the cause of its pain is the feeling you want to understand, this is not a choice, but you have to see through human nature, understand."

I put my hand on his chest with my thorny eyes, and put my hand on my chest, and every heart is my heart.”

He slightly picks his lips, "the word has two strokes, one is blood, one is meat, so people are emotional, for emotional pain, as far as your topic is concerned, see is not a choice, I will return the problem to you, ask, what is the most important thing in human nature!"How can we not continue to suffer?”

I said, “I have a good conscience!”

Deep breath, "I will be in pain, because I have a personal heart, this is also the heart of people, and as a person, nothing more than what you choose, the most important thing is to have a clear conscience, for the sky to the parents, the end of the line is done right!"There is no fear!”

He smiled and nodded, "I like your temper, rush, but happy."

I also laughed, the five organs are easy, I once saw through the first step, in the choice of the dilemma of Lu Er and Daojie, I said to choose Lu II, but I was too late to make a determination, until I thought of attachment in the box, I can fight with heaven, and fight with the earth, I want to protect my happiness.

Later, the choice is very clear, even if I do not regret, but the chagrin of the body hate is also true, now, I understand, this is only because I have a heart, joy and sorrow, are all I want to accept, I want to do, just formal myself, accept myself, love myself.

Do not hate yourself.

I looked at the river, "I understand what I'm going to suffer, I just can't accept myself, so I'll do something to hurt myself, I'm just a human being."

“Do you think about what you’re wrong about?”

I shook my head and looked at him very firmly, "except for the last death, all my roads in front of me do not feel that I am wrong..."

Looking at his eyes with a smile, I mentioned the tone, "the suffering of the world, all the way is that I rob."I live, I will, I am dead, I have no regrets."

The rain stopped –

I watched the umbrella in the high man’s hand disappear, touched his clothes, or did it.

“How did it stop?”

The tall man groaned and sat back in his place and went on to pick up the fishing rod, "You say that."

I’m embarrassed again, this, what’s the situation?

How did he come out for a while and looked around, "What is this, how can it rain, it's raining, my face is wet, how can I not get wet?"

“You don’t understand yet?”

He looked at me and said, "This is your heart."

“My heart?”

I touched the rain that had just fallen on my face, “Then this is my tears?”

Looking up at the sky, so I cried not from the eyes of tears but rain?

Turn your head and look at the river again, “Is this all I’ve been crying out?”

Oh my god!

Twenty-four years of my life have cried out a great river of waves!

There was a sense of panic in an instant, this feeling came out, and some wind, he frowned at me, "the mood is not so big ... calm..."

I couldn't care for this god man, turned to look at the flowers and trees next to me, "I don't think so, I dreamed of my own heart, all of which are yellow soil, very dry..."

He did not pick up the stubble, it was completely left to me to digest it myself, I took a picture of the bottom, "I am crying here of the bird-scented flowers?"I am rich in feelings, so I am not in my heart of the yellow soil?”

Damn, I was stupid, my mind thought of the scene as a child, suddenly saw the figure from a tree, some surprised by the first few steps, the tree seems to open a curtain, I saw a three- and four-year-old child is desperately drilling into a chicken nest, the old man behind shouting, "Four treasures!Come out!It doesn’t lay eggs in the bucket!”

My eyes are slowly opening, the child is me, the old man, is my grandmother.

The picture seems to flow with my mind, the next second, it becomes the scene of the seven or eight-year-old I am sleepy with my face to listen to my grandmother's story.

Very real, like I made a fast-in-the-long movie, I watched myself grow up a little, and also watched myself go to the landing of millet porridge do not spit -

“Hm on.”

The man laughed, "It was funny when you were a child."

I looked back at him, he was sitting on the river with his back to me, did not turn his face back ah, how I looked at everything he knew ah, did not think too much, looked at the picture again, I quickly grew up, a smile seems so clear-

Come to Bincheng, and even go to school pictures, as long as I am slightly calm down, you can see the details.

Until I saw myself in that warehouse, I nestled in that pile of paper shell box eyes confused, this place I deliberately looked very thin, there is a car broke into the door, that week crazy people really stood to the railing, very surprised to see the landing shouting, and Lu Pei, but straight to my stride running, he held my shoulder to call my name, but I like a blind man to touch his face...

The rain is falling again.

I covered my mouth and watched the crazy head jump down that week, Lu Pei was nervous to comfort me, he held me to run to the car, his face was burning, I was confused, my eyes were half-closed, and Uncle Lei, Uncle Lei did meet and say a few words to me, and then got into the car-

Sucking down my nose, I waved my hand to make the picture stop.

“Why don’t you continue?”

Don't want to take care of him, what happened behind him can let you see!

After a while, the rain finally stopped.

I turned around and sat a few steps beside him, looking at the river.

Half-way, I spit out a sentence, "High man, when am I on the road?"